this is the light of autumn, it has turned on us

panting like a dog at the edge of your bed: 64k, Tian Guan Ci Fu, rated E. He Xuan character study with He Xuan/Shi Qingxuan endgame and a lot of He Xuan/Hua Cheng along the way.

This is a DVD commentary in two parts, because I did in-line commentary and the fic was too long to fit all in one. It's also not technically finished because the last chapter is in-beta-progress, but I've had the first half of this post ready to go for ages, so I might as well share it?

Content warnings include rape, explicit sex, torture fantasies, disordered eating, amorphous dysphoria and other Gender And Body Problems, equally amorphous suicidality, graphic violence, and what I can only describe as “Huaxuan, weed smoking frenemies.”

( i have walked this body... )